" i can hear crickets"........

i miss him so much. anyways, im proud of him and sad at the same time too. having the feeling of longing and lost is just so terrible. whn i need him and when im feeling down. he' s not there. but then again i understand. every men has to go thru all this. that doesnt matter. ive realised that i am much more stronger now. anyway, dear dont worry about me. i'll be fine (: you should know that i miss you even more whn you're not here beside me.

anyway, tmr is the christmas eve. dear wanted to bring me somwhere after he bookout from camp tmr. hopefully tmr gonna be fun! (: and oh! btw yesterday elmes birthday party was awesome! gd food and friendly ppl! that lil boy must be so happy and im sure he must be eagerly waiting for christmas to come so that he can start opening up his bday present. hehe. i hope you like my gifts too baby!

Lastly before i end this post...

To my dearly zid. Thanks for being there for me, loving me and cared for me. You forever empower me to be just who I am, but encourage me to be more because you see my whole potential. You haf made me your princess, and I cnt wait for the day to be in your arms forever. This distance shall be short lived for deep within we know that all obstacles shall pass and our souls will be one.

I love you with my whole existence, my whole life and nothing in the world can take that away. You've created a secret palace, a fantasy that only WE can reach within our dreams. You are my paradise, my safe-haven, the security and stability that I have longed for in my life. I love you, my baby poo poo!

remember that i love you with every aching bone in my body no matter what. and thats the truth.

Having your love has been the best thing that has ever happened to me

i love you and that will never changed the way i feel about you in my heart,